Number 2?

It's not that I don't want another baby. I love being a mom & I love Presley more than anything. I just always thought that for the second one I would be stateside. Ya know, closer to my loved ones. Ya know, closer to people I trust baby-sitting Presley so that Jamie & I can spend some time alone. Did I mention that we haven't spent ANY time alone since Presley was born? I mean, a couple hours during a nap doesn't count. Jamie still being awake when Presley's in bed for the night doesn't count as quality time either. Another baby thrown into the mix isn't going to help mommy/daddy time. I loved being pregnant & yes, I do feel a little selfish when I think that having another kid might be an easier way of losing weight. (If I do everything better the next time around & be 150% committed to BF & not just pumping.)


I wanted to go back to school when we moved back to the states. I wanted to buy a house (Esp if we moved to Cali) & I wanted to be the super cute dental assistant who only worked because she wanted to spend all of her money on her daughter. Ugh. I wanted my darn Prius (or go the opposite way & buy a new 2009 Durango.) Needless to say, I'm so selfish. I know that Jamie wants his son so badly. I have to say, I would love to be able to have my little boy! I just don't know. If we were to get pregnant, I would be so happy! But a little sad at the same time. NONE of my family has seen Presley in person. They've never held her or kissed her. It makes me so sad. I know that my family will hate me with a passion. It's not like I'm planning to have another kid. (Well, I think Jamie might be.)

I guess I just needed to vent a little. Jamie thinks I'm currently pregnant. *sigh* I wish he wouldn't say that. He's making me want to be pregnant... which means if I'm not, I'll be sad. I went through this way too much when ttc all those years. Who knew years of negative pregnancy tests would take such a toll of your emotions? Right? Heh. I should just be happy that my husband WANTS another baby! Some guys are fine with one little one & wouldn't dare go near number two! I guess Jamie loves being a dad so much that he wants another little baby. :) Plus, I want P to have a little brother/sister.

After all, God would never give us more than we can handle. Right?

xoxo